Untold confession

I never told anyone this but it’s really scratching my heart..

So my first love; no names ;was in my class for 3-4 years. We started talking, and maybe I need to say his religion is kind of strange for people that aren’t used to it.

Back to the not so expected love story.

We both knew we liked each other (very much) but never told the other we had feelings that way. It was noticeable but no one cared.

In our lunch break we would always sit in the library; he played chess all day; one random Wednesday we did our routine library chess date. (I only looked pretty next to him while he played lol) BUT THEN..

OMG HE PUT HIS HAND ON MY KNEE! my 14-year old, unfortunately unstable and not knowing what’s going on heart, was pounding so loud and I re-fell in love.

That was the most beautiful and unexpected;unfortunately unforgettable moment in my life.

Still we never told us how we felt and we still go to the same school.

The eye contact still hurts ngl..

He is giving me mixed signals and I don’t know what to do.

ANYWAYYYYY GOOD NIGHT 💤